Stranger

Live without regrets because it all brought you here,

Each teacher challenger I once feared,

Only regretting ones that will never see,

But I live on knowing they'd be so proud of me.

Dear former foes and perfect strangers,

Dear old friends that time turned stranger,

To all the anxious kids who lie awake

Dunno who you are but forgive your mistake

To that person who didn't treat me right,

Of the guy who picked a fight,

I know there is so much more to you

Than the shell that I once knew.

So to all with a past that crinkles your brow,

Please set yourself free for it doesn't matter now,

You don't have to even live in the here, just do not resent,

Please allow yourself to be happy for this present.

When we're in crowd and you're shoulder rubs mine,

But you don't know me we're all undefined

Every person that you meet,

Each perfect stranger could be me

So forgive me and I'll forgive you

If only the whole wide world knew

That everyone has their regrets

If only we saw eachother's progress.

I met this person who's an echo of you,

Who doesn't see me as the person you knew,

I always hoped you mind's eye could see

That someday you would be proud of me.

Sinking

Lungs feel like they'll explode when we come up for air

Vision was a little blurry but I'd swear there's something there.

Maybe it was all a fake, an epic plastic ruse

But this is still a masterpiece and I've got nothing to lose.

The mother load if confusion, leviathan of bane 

Epitome of rock bottom echo off the mountain range.

Speaking my mind not because life is short

Words are waiting now, I'll leave them at your door.

We dove pretty deep and maybe we're still just gasping for air

Please say if I'm wrong but I would swear there was something there

Maybe I'm trying to skip a stone that's destined for the sea,

We could freedive and find nothing, but at least we still are free.

Little Miss

Miscarried, words misleading me,

Miss Daring how dare you believe (in me)?

The little girl I never met

Pretend memories I won't forget

The lost child inside,

Washed away by all the tears once cried.

The one that sailed to the moon

Phased far through it all too soon,

Miss won't you come out and play?

Cause it is a beautiful day today.

When they said if she jumped they swore she would die

She wandered the stars and in her dreams she would fly,

Severed the sea and away her soul flew,

Took her smile with her and mine for safekeeping too.

Miscarried, words misleading me,

Miss Daring how dare you believe in me?

The little girl I never met,

Pretend memories I won't forget

The lost child inside,

Washed away by invisible tears once cried.

The one that sailed to the moon

Phased far through it all too soon,

Miss won't you come out and play?

Cause it is a beautiful day today.

The imaginary friends made a circle one day

And said "we are the fine, the toll she must pay"

In all her loneliness we'll be the only friends,

Until the day the child comes back again.

So dear friends lets play pretend

Cause when I'm with you I feel like a child again

We can go the moon, let's not come back too soon,

This beautiful day is all because of you.

Oh right here it's all anew,

Nothing like the world I knew

The child inside starts just a little shy,

But believe she won't let this pass her by.

Miscarried, words misleading me,

Miss Daring how dare you believe in me?

Miscarried, words misleading me,

(Child inside starts just a little shy)

Miss Daring how dare you believe?

(Believe I won't let this pass me by)

Miss Daring please believe

The little girl I never met,

Pretend memories I won't forget

The lost child inside,

Washed away by invisible tears once cried.

The one that sailed to the moon

Phased far through it all too soon,

Miss won't you come out and play?

Cause it is a beautiful day today.

Summer

I want to hold on but it's so hard to show

When "learn to let go" is all I've ever known. 

Filled with regret for our silent year,

But know I've thought of you each day, my dear.

Wonder when you are laughing, when admire the skies,

The moments you feel alone and the tears that you hide.

Miss our whispered talks and the moments we "just knew",

All of our dreams and things we planned to do.

Our tree has had its summer and all good things must end,

But to this very day I still miss you dear friend.

Precious People

     Last night I was remembering friends who have ever texted me just to see how I'm doing. They are not the type of people who seek out the adulation of others but goshdarnit they really set the bar high for being a loyal friend.

     Even with plain friendships sometimes people are so afraid of rejection and not being loved back the same way that they don't express how important people are to them until it's too late.

     While my no is still no, I hold all the guys I've rejected dates with in higher regard than the ones I've ever been interested in. At least the ones I rejected were man enough to be straightforward. (And evidently I need to reevaluate what I find attractive in a person because people like that are rare gems.)

Walk in Like a Windstorm

I walk in like a windstorm,

Where hot and cold meet,

Start off with a whisper before I

Sweep you off your feet.

Listen like a-whistling step

In a sunny spring forlorn,

Then speak like a hurricane

In a moving storm.

Let it all spill out

To take away the pain,

Then when I go away again

I'll carry away your rain.

- The Girl in the Wind, M. Tadeo
(See "Characters" tag)

Black Lace

Behind the black lace, still hide my face

From all the pain that comes from every last disgrace

I'm in mourning every morning for the man in the moon

The Stars and the night and all my friends who left too soon

Am I the only one who runs from the sun

Because the light will show incomplete marks that I have done

These are my kind, we are bright souls

In a dark world that takes something bold

Because I go through phases never loving my own face

Hide in it black lace to cover up my sound disgrace.

Capillaries of stone, carved from mountains I'd rather roam,

In a New York crowds of people that is where I feel most alone.

My mind of on the edge of the mountain

If I jumped would I fly?

Realist said no I'll die, Skeptics bet I'd never try.

Realists and artists, peacemakers with scarred fists

Running bloody lines to be refined

Just a number forget the names list.

So believe me if you please when I say I'm leaving this other dream

Because reality I cannot see all I believe.

Believe in a better world where I am not than just a girl

But e person I want to see in the mirror,

Honest person I would believe,

Somewhere where I am somebody.

Through the webs around and 8-part arachnid sounds,

Think in sevens and feel in eight for knitted worried brows.

Spin another frame on my face to face the face of all my pain,

Black lace parasol because I don't care to keep out the rain.

If I Jumped

"If I jumped would I fly?"

Realists said "no you'll die".

Friends would not accept goodbye.

Skeptics bet I'd never try.

Mental health awareness week has passed but depression is as real as ever for thousands of people. If someone tells you they will commit suicide, please do not dismiss it as an empty threat. Your words and actions could save a life!