"How have you been?"

In the gentlest way I can, I decline to answer.

"May God find every reason to show you mercy that I cannot."

Something is wrong with people right now.

I feel like hiring a carrier pigeon to send mail. (I love pigeons, too).

Texting is the new email. Email is the new snail mail. Carrier pigeon is the new texting? 🕊️ 

My love is unconditional; my presence is not.

Never marry a man who is afraid of horses. It means he fears what he cannot control. For this, he will likely either hold back from you, or, try to break you. 

Chances are you want someone will face you as an equal. 

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He tried to force me into a broken domestication. 

Instead, he found the forces of creation come upon him. 

(It is a wonder how one can be so surprised that even the kindest of patience has its limits...)

There's nothing at the end of this, is there.

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There is nothing in front of me, and nothing behind me.

There is only the War. No cause to be fighting for on this earth. Is there?

My pain, these days, is very much a live wire.

And a waiting.

"Selana, a pleasure to see you again."

"The pleasure’s all yours."

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The wolf horse rat bats in the Ahsoka series remind me of Luna 💛

I realize how much she led to me embracing yellow more, so wholeheartedly, and white, too

🤍

*And the cat is just like Virtute

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"There'll be no negotiating with the apprentice of Anakin Skywalker."

*Ahsoka comes riding in across the mood on a rat wolf horse bat*

The Ahsoka show's writing has not done what I was hoping for my favorite character, but that line does go pretty hard.

Sometimes I gotta give up so that I can un-give-up

You know?

Here I have been, at the end of my rope, doing what I always do. (No options left? Create something. Today and yesterday and the days before, creating my ways into connection across a gap that feels impossible to get across).

N2?

At the end of her role, she drives over to encourage a young person and leaves energized.

Funny how we do that.

How funny it is, I really do go all out once I let myself decide to give up or say no.

(It really becomes my choice, then, it seems.)

"He is more stoic, and gray, watching the stars while I try to come down from them.”

That capoeira style that starts with m, is basically whole wheat hip hop. I love it.

This is so much more the style that reaches for my heart. 

https://youtu.be/PggA2tvfPsk?si=XzK8Ov4pEDQ6cEyf

https://youtu.be/53aM7GQs0Ug?si=gTQYOBW0DeYbf6gw

 ***Sensitive people tend to love the colour red right now

I feel like I am transparent and people just aren't looking.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZncYMBx-9G/?igsh=YjlpNW80emE0eWRv

(Images of an idyllic life in the country, around horses, with a dog, an earthy home, quiet in nature)

This is what I wanted from the start. But the older I get, the more I let it go, and the more I embrace what seems to be inescapable life of conflict for cause.

My tree isn't on fire anymore

“For there is hope even for a tree.” - Job 4:17

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My tree isn't on fire anymore.

And not only is it not on fire, it is restored, healed. As if it was never burned to begin with.

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Matthew 21:

18 While returning to the city early in the morning, he felt hungry. 19 He caught sight of a fig tree by the road and went to it, but he found nothing on it except leaves, and he said to it: “Let no fruit come from you ever again.” And the fig tree withered instantly. 20 When the disciples saw this, they were amazed and said: “How is it that the fig tree withered instantly?” 21 In answer Jesus said to them: “Truly I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only will you do what I did to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, ‘Be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ it will happen. 22 And all the things you ask in prayer, having faith, you will receive

💚 

#goodgift

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It's funny. Whenever I upload an image and blogger defaults to Center alignment, it reminds me of those inspirational, scripture, or otherwise Hallmark card like graphics or cards. 

I wasn't going to keep it there but the emoji in the middle like that is nice and you know. what I'm feeling the slightly cheesy/tacky today.

*Okay maybe I'm not feeling it that much enough to keep it centered. Not the *whole* thing at least.

**Dangit my browser is struggling and I can't change it 😂 

I get to choose who I will be, I choose who I will be…

Venn Diagram Idea - “ignorance” and “naivete”

Idea to write about: the difference between “ignorance” and “naivete”. Would probably be cool as a Venn diagram, too.

"...Not because I think anything is different, but because I miss when it felt like anything even could be."

Don't blink, but do dream,

Don't waste your breath, but if you must, scream.