Written ~ December 24, 2018, buried in October 1, 2016 for poetic justice.
Too many people have had the misfortune of this kind of experience. Of feeling this way. If this applies to you, please you can get past this, and things will get better.
Dedicated to my partners in crime. You guys are the best.
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Does it kind of feel like this?
Being left to try to replace your favourite memories,
And to try to stop waiting for promises that will never be delivered,
Part because in the end they didn't pick you,
And part because they tricked you.
And try to tell yourself that there was nothing you could have done differently that would have changed anything...
Or was there?
And to stop thinking about it all over and over and over and again.
Try to stop wondering.
Just because you could have, doesn't mean you should have.
You've been told "you dodged a bullet"
but then why does this not feel like a real relief?
Or sometimes it does, but other times it doesn't?
You want to see the good but you don't want to miss it.
Something just because some parts are good, that doesn't make it all right.
Did it feel kind of like that?
Please believe that sometimes it takes more than good for something to be right,
And that it's gonna be alright.
Someday you'll say "it did feel like that, but not so much anymore."