'True Beauty' Thoughts Pt 1

My personality is nothing like Jugyeong's, but I can understand her story. That history of intense bullying and a bittersweet glowup, and that feeling of having to erase who you were to protect who you are.

I don't just want to remember you, I want to know you.

"I don't just want to remember you as you were, I want to know you as you are.

And maybe for you to know me, too."

"What makes you think you want to know me?"

"Because the only part of her that still exists as it was, the only part I think is worth existing, is the part that believed in you implicitly and cared about you unconditionally."

 Their sing-song voices and warm smiles interrupt the nightmares.

Another world within the world (languages)

Mandarin is my escape.

Learning a new language, especially one that has a whole community within the community, is like opening the door to enter another world within the world.

And if I study hard, it just may be my ticket to freedom.

Language can be a barrier, but it can also be an open door.

Backdated from 2021-09-06 posting

Today's Good Human award goes to... Lauren, and my mom

Lauren has a tough mind and a soft heart, and you'll never meet a person more genuine. She is a good person who doesn't pretend to be perfect even though she is a lot closer than she'll ever believe, smarter than she'll ever admit.

My mom is a person who will forever her all and then some. Her flaw is taking too much upon herself; because she never can bring herself to leave someone else in a rut, even if it costs her dearly. She never takes herself too seriously, and she seriously never gives up on people.

Both of today's winners stand up for what they believe in, and care about everybody else more than herself. The only thing I wish is that they would be a bit more selfish sometimes, because they always have people leaning on then; then again, they lean on God and maybe that is how they can do so much.

Poetry Is & Yellow Flowers, Good Friends & Superpowers

Poetry is speaking sincerely without necessarily speaking literally.

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#memory

cute little girl outside the yard called out "hi!" to me. "How are you?" she calls again. "I am dong well thank you very much! How are you?" 

I asked her if she wanted to come and pick some flowers. (I was harvesting some from our yellow bush to make jewelry). On her papa's shoulders, she came over. They seem like such a wonderful family, I wish I was wearing my glasses to have seen them more clearly.

It was the most wholesome and sweet interaction I've had since the start of the pandemic. I wish the very best for them.

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#memory (May 2)

Working with Q, Ray Ray, and T&J. Was exactly what I needed.

They are all leaders. It's something very special, and this was a day I won't forget.

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In a dream we (friends and family) were part of a team of superheroes. My superpower was a milk telekinesis; not able to pick things up with my mind, but create a level of influence or resistance to slow things down or speed them up. It worked with these blue nebula-like things in my hands, that I more or less threw where I needed it to act upon.

Blue isn't my favourite colour, but I'm very happy with it and there was something very nice about it coming up in the dream instead of consciously choosing a superhero colour. What superheroes ever choose the colours their powers show up as anyway?