Can't paint my way out

Can I call you back with music?
Can I paint you back to life?
I'd learn piano, sail the world solo,
To see that you are fine.

I can't call you back with music.
Can't paint you back to life.
This time there's nothing I can do, except
Waiting for His light;
For the thief in the night.

Day in the life being five feet tall (False security)

My whole wardrobe is made so people don't pick on me,
I spend all my money on false security;
It's all superficial, no deeper than the skin.
Just to get by in all these fights I know I'll never win.

"Just be yourself" say people who'll never know
What it's like to have no place you can ever go
Without people staring, and making sly remarks.

If you spent one day as me
I think you'd be startled by the dark.

Xiaomanyc 小馬在紐約 video - secret speaker of Chinese

Once I was at a food place and some of the guys behind the counter were making fun of their coworker about me in a language I was learning (but going by my face peoples wouldn't guess I could understand). It was so embarrassing, but I didn't call them out because then they would remember me even in the future, and I would have gone from joke of the night to joke of forever  🥲 

(Yes I still use Facebook. Let me live my life.)

Moving it with you

I don't think this is something we ever really "move on" from in this life. But I think it's possible to learn to move it with us.

We cannot just work to unbecome a bereaved person, but with time we can work to become a bereaved person who is different from the way we are right now.

Whether we live or we die

"For if we live, we live to Jehovah, and if we die, we die to Jehovah. So both if we live and if we die, we belong to Jehovah." -Romans 14:8

Banana bread recipe

 

You don't move on —you learn to move it with you

Someone asked "how does anyone move on?"

How does anyone "move on" from this kind of grief?

Honestly, I don't think we do. But slowly, you do learn to move it with you.

~~

For all the ways you moved me. #letterstoher

Scientific calculator

Is anyone else abnormally possessive of their calculator?

"Hey can I borrow your scientific calculator?"

"Why?"

Published Sept 18

Why do environmental jobs all require access to your own vehicle

dp, dr, abandonment, and the closest thing to resolution

Yes, I forgot who you were.

But you forgot me first.

~~

And sometimes I wonder "why?"

Was it because you didn't know what was going on, what happened, 

Or was it because you did?

Or something else I don't know?

I just wonder why.

Published Sept 18

My honest secret take on moustaches

If someone has a really long face it's fine.

But if they don't,

A moustache just makes them look like a hamburger head.

Pub. Sept 18, 2022