Cold Flute Hands

     On anxiety days when my hands are very cold, the scariest thing is when I pick up my flute but am unable to feel any music.
     Even though it has always returned before there is still that moment of panic. What if it never comes back?
     But it always does.
     Still, I have often wondered if my flute's voice sounds better when my hands are hot because they are physically warmer, of it it's because hot hands means I must be profoundly happy or at least not anxious.
     Either way, I suppose for music's sake I just have to be deeply happy.