Fake

I try and too often fail to remember that when people seem fake in their demeanor, sometimes it's not really about wanting to look a certain way to others or have others esteem them so much as wanting to feel a certain way themselves.

      Or even if it is largely about appearance, maybe inside they feel completely miserable and don't want to share that or for other people to see it.

      I know sometimes especially at my worst I don't always write how or what I really feel, but I write to feel a certain way. It would be hypocritical of me to not at least try to understand when others do their own version of that.