June 5 - June 15 many Shorts in one catch-up post

June 5

Is grieving like a rock tumbler?

The grief is still all there, but it softens the edges some of it ends up in smaller, more manageable pieces.

Edit: why does that opening sound like a pickup line

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Anything can become a regret when you end up with the bad outcome

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I don’t want to be one of those people who just argued their way through life, just pushes to make things go their way instead of actually earning things.

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“Emails sent, texts answered, Duolingo done, all other tasks completed. Now I can stress in peace.”

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All of reality cannot be purely a simulation or dream within my own mind at least, I’m not smart enough to be able to invent entire disciplines of science in my mind complete with laws of nature that are consistent with one another’s.

June 13

Do we need an impending end to compel us to make it worthwhile, though? 

I understand the draw of saying things like "knowing we have an ending is what makes life worthwhile." I understand both the thought and its comforting. I have felt it too, and thought perhaps it is the end of the canvas that compels us to appreciation, and that this appreciation is what makes the piece beautiful.

But one of the questions that changed my life was being asked “are you more motivated by negativity (eg. fear) or positivity (eg. desire)?”. Surrounded by the artistry of a universe we never see the edges of though made me realize it’s ok to just not want an ending that is coming anyway.

This is not that canvases are any less beautiful for the edges I can see, but had to think a little bigger to know we don't need to have final edges in sight to perceive endless beauty.

June 15

Welcome to the land of music,

Where all that is in your heart exists.

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Music is a way of expressing and making real ideas in your mind and what is in your heart, using a universal language, without necessarily making those thoughts vulnerable to the criticisms of others.

Published 2022-08-01