“True” and “untrue”

It makes me concerned when people feel the need to classify everyone into the category of true friend or fake friend. I hate it when people have called my friends untrue because they don't chase me or they cancel often. Ok I'll call that flakey, not untrue. I don't think it's that black and white.

although good parents aren’t always right

When we grow up we realize that good parents aren’t always right,
But that they do want what’s best for us.
Would you rather trust someone’s mind or their heart?
Of course we want both, but if you had to pick one over the other, which would it be?
Listen to what they have to think, then think about it yourself. That is the way around he problem. It doesn’t mean you inherently will or inherently will not come to the same conclusion, but good parents are worth hearing out, and considering seriously, because it’s coming from the person you can rely on to want the best for you.

Moods October 22, 2018

We need to make this a meme with a picture of Marlin Talking to little Crush son from Finding Nemo saying, "You’re really cute but I don’t understand what you’re saying!"
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Sometimes I think people confuse “I’m doing my best” and “I’m not going to listen to any advice.”
If doing your best as is isn’t working then maybe changing the approach to listening to advice will help.
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This morning I got distracted by anger and can’t find a funny thought about something to say to people if they say something to me. But I don’t remember what either of those things are.
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"Remember when you said you want to live like an island person?"

Everything in Syracuse matches

Everything in Syracuse matches. Even the new buildings. Even the graffiti, the boldest one made it blue.
Everything here is brown and beige and red, with a touch of green and the even smaller touch of blue.
Even all the ads seem to match; they’re for Coors light.
Except this lawyer ad. They’re lawyers though.
The matchy-matchy city. We saw it peaking out between mountains covered in autumn trees.
They’ll even match their forest in a few weeks from now, in deep autumn, when the only leaves left are red and brown.
I have never seen burgundy and grey-beige graffiti before.

^memory with mom on our trip to New York 2018

I don’t feel able to let my thoughts and feelings flow through

Holding so fast to “just don’t let things get to you”

Brain zaps feel like little earthquakes in my head.

“I don’t mean to try to justify my mistakes, but there is nothing left but for me to be honest now.”

Now introducing the tag: prompts

(Will be adding to some old posts soon too)

Sometimes I wish I was built a little less warrior, and a little more artist

I wish I was built a little less warrior, and a little more artist.

I’d like to be fighting less and creating more.

In fact, I’d like the whole world to be that way.

But I just can’t keep my hands to myself, and I always go back to the fight.

(Title edited Dec 28, 2019)

Proof of Change - December 2018, buried in October

Many people I know are very embarrassed and ashamed about the kind of person they were in the past. Maybe at a time they were going through something nobody knew about, or maybe they were just ignorant, or immature, or didn't know any better.

Out of the people I know who have told me how ashamed they were of who they were at another points in time when I knew them, I can confirm that in my eyes none of them nearly were as bad as they think they were.

We were all young and dumb at one point.

But what if you think you were the absolute worst, and nothing could or nobody would convince you otherwise?

Maybe you were the worst.

If you really were the worst, be living proof that even the worst can change.

As long as peoples' bad memories of you are no longer reflective of who you are now, I believe you have the potential to make up for it with good in the world. You might not run into them again, but as you keep living differently, treating all those around you now well, I believe you can be redeemed. Because the people you know now have bad memories of other peoples they won't see again, so you can make up for theirs, and somebody else can make up for yours.

You are a perfect stranger to so many people, and they are strangers to you. Everybody has made mistakes others know about, and others don't know about.

But if you do run into them, those people who would remember you badly, maybe in a short moment they will be able to learn that even the worst can change, which is a powerful lesson. And if they refuse to see that, if they refuse to forgive, then the problem no longer lies with you but with them, for they too have made mistakes.

I write all this because I have felt what it's like to want to forget the kind of person I Was, and to forget people who hurt me. Sometimes I am so ashamed of the kind of person I was, of my faults, and embarrassed of their outcomes, and seek redemption. Yet when I run into old friends they usually treat me so much more kindly than I feel I deserve, and I really appreciate that.

But I also am a person people might want forgiveness from. I was bullied, quite harshly by some. It did its damage, and I have a lot I could be very resentful about.

To this day, I hate the colour green. If you bullied me, you might understand why. I'm not going to lie to you and say it didn't do its damage.

But I'd want you to know that I forgive you for it. You are free to forgive yourself as long as you put those actions in the past and leave them there, an don't let them come back and touch anyone else.

Because we all need forgiveness, and to change.

“Socially, you just wear a windbreaker and I wear a hoodie. You seem cold on the outside and I let things get to me.”

"Maybe he's man-strating."

I avoid talking to strangers in lineups because I get too attached to them.

Story writing = productive overthinking

Sad love songs

When people who used to be in relationships say "love hurts" it doesn't really make sense to take it too seriously. Of course life has taught them that, until you find the one then everything you've known must have ended with some sort of heartbreak.

Dreams of being a tidepool

An ocean wave that dreams of being a tidepool.

"Cold and crashing and breaking, when I'd rather give warm kisses on ankles and be calm and colourful." she says.
"Instead I take down ships and rise in storms,
Everything is up and down, with dangerous highs and endless lows."

People leave things with me they hope to never see again,
And release messages in bottles full of everything they wish they told someone else.

People say they love the depths but it terrifies them,
And how can you blame them?

Live a story you'll want to tell by adopting a character you'd want to be.

The only meme ideas I can remember

"Hi, I'd like to introduce you to the human race" (then you can take your pic from something obscure, normal, and/or appalling, or you can take the sweet rout like helping a duckling cross the road or something)

ASMR videos of shaving.

You're lying in bed and suddenly remember that you're unable to remember something you don't remember.

Too much and not enough

How is it that people habitually make other people feel that they are simultaneously too much, and not enough?

Well, if that is you then there is something you should know: People say the same of the sun.

People say the sun is too much, others say there is not enough, yet with all it's "too much" and "not enough" it is a perfect distance from the only planet we know of that is able to support life.

No matter how people complain about it, it is just right. 

Out of this world

Who hasn't wanted to be a diver or an astronaut during at least one moment of their lives?
We desire something out for this world, we desire depth, only to find entire worlds right before us.

Introducing 'Cranberry Works'

So. I'm probably more excited than I should be about this.

If you have explored the navbar recently, you might have noticed a couple changes in referencing a slew of projects...

Meet the newest project, Cranberry Works.

For bitter and sweet.

This is the name of my new online art shop being kickstarted via the online market and print shop, Society6. Products are printed on-demand to avoid waste, and artists of all skill levels from around the world can publish their pieces and put together collections.

One of the primary features of the shop will be the Ocean Minded Water(colour) series, while other styles of art such as impressionism, and some cameo appearances from lines from lunar-winds.

  

First Pic: The name 'Ocean Minded' is meant to describe daily mindfulness of how our activities affect life in the water -and by extension, life on land- and being open to making changes in harmony with that. Parallel post at naturenimbus.blogpost.ca under the same date.

Right now I have a few projects on the go already, but do accept custom orders and commissions for personal use and events. If you are looking for more info please visit the page in the navbar or email cranberrycreative.works@gmail.com.

*Squeeeee*