"Melody-Wan Kenobi"

"Melody-Wan Kenobi" —this is a nickname someone gave to me today.

I see why you came to resent me for not being like you, not approving of everything you. Because in certain key ways I already was what to wanted to be, but were to afraid to become, because you were afraid to step into the light. Because you must step into the the clarity of day where your flaws are visible.

And you could not accept that you were flawed. Because it hurt too much, because that pain of being fully understood, including understood as truly flawed, was too terrifying.

Meanwhile, I wanted nothing more to be seen through conpletely as I am. And you hated that I said I would sit by you in your darkness, but refused to join you in hiding there.

I will continue to hope to see you someday in the light, in the distance, letting your light shine. I will not force you out of the dark before your time, but have faith that someday you may know the freedom of the clarity of being understood and understanding oneself.

But as for my own life, I will stand here in the light of day. Trying to my best to believe in myself on my own the way I believed in you.