I have come to a huge, important realization! Because writing is such an intensely emotional thing for me, when I'm writing about negative things, it is better for me to dictate it into my phone. This way I express myself, I'm letting out my emotions, I'm being true to them without intensifying them because writing is more important to me than speaking. I can now free myself having expressed my emotions without feeling them with heightened intensity looking at the words on the page.