For context, I lost some data in a glitch on the Finch app, so customer care offered me LOTS, too much stuff, to compensate.
Now, for my own benefit it is best I don't fully accept it all, so that it doesn't defeat the purpose of the app.
But at the same time, that is not the only thought that was making me reluctant to accept more than one item, if anything.
I realize I tend to push away good things happen to me that I did not earn, but readily feeling deserving of all the bad things, even if I didn't cause them.
I'm glad I asked for a second item, instead of just one. (It was something to match my man's bird :)
Everywhere from feeling it would be unfair to accept more than one item as compensation for my lost data, to pushing away good from my mom even after she stressed me out and made it hard for me to cook.
I think this is partly from low self-esteem, and partly trying to avoid a victim mentality as if the world owes me a debt.
(Published April 1, written March 31)
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